Six months ago I had a baby. A freakin’ baby. Me, of all people.

There are days where I am still perplexed. Carrying and birthing another human is an intense journey. But, what I now know is that it’s just the beginning. Everyone says, “They grow up so fast”. And while you may not feel that way on your fourth night with no sleep or during those early cluster feeding days, when you hit a milestone like this one (half of a year) you feel it.

Experiences shape who we are and love can be transformative, right? Then of course I am not the same person I was 6 months ago. Hell, I’m not the same person I was last week! And neither are you for that matter.

Today I start another part of my journey as a stay at home mom. Something I never thought I’d be, mostly because I never thought I’d have a kid, but partially because I never thought I’d want to be one. And while I will miss the work that I do and the team that I work with, I am ready to embrace this new adventure. Making this decision (which has been a long time coming) is one of the hardest I’ve made. Taking lots of deep breaths tonight.